Katrina

i have a lot to talk about regarding last week's SUCCESSFULLLLLL ALLHIPHOP Week, my lil trip to Delaware this weekend, and SCHMOEEEEE resurfacing but right now all i can think of is this damn Katrina...


WOW... my aunt is sick right now. her side of the fam is from New orleans and she hasnt spoken to anyone. this is crazy. im watching the video footage in disbelief. its soooo unreal to me. especially it being in the USA. when the tsunami hit indonesia and taiwan, it was sad... it was crazy.. but it didnt hit home... katrina on the other hand... is toooo close for comfort. what are people supposed to do? how do you start over after something like this? whats wrong with mother nature? what did we do? ive been a basket case just watching this stuff with my mouth open. i havent been this glued to the TV since the 2004 presidential race. it was s disheartening to watch this 77 year old woman walk on the side of the highway. those sudden feelings changed to anger when i saw our people looting the damn walmart stealing TV's. WTF!??!?!? Sir... WHERE are you going with that television???? there is NOOOO electricty and probably wont be any for awhile. are you going to carry that all the way to Texas? Whats wrong with people... but in the words of sass... those arent black people... those are "niggers". PAUSE... remember: nigger= ignorant... and that they were... i couldnt help but feel sick when i saw the historical french quarters damn near under water as well... no more Bourbon street... whats going to be of Mardi gras? i generally saw new orleans as a town of food and fun... thats how my aunt made it sound... and now.. all u see is water... water... and more water...

the last thing i watched brought a tear to my eye... this woman was walking in the street, wading through the water and said " this is new orleans... we are strong, we will make it through by the grace of God." thats some serious faith...


...signing off with a smile*

Growing up so fast...

my lil 12 year old cousin scared me today... she just told me she cant wait to be 23 so she could go out with me... then i felt myself sounding like an adult telling her to relax... and dont rush her life...enjoy ure teenage days.. those are some precious years... i dont know what happened but i felt my eyes burn a lil' bit like i was about to cry... then i started thinking about my younger days... and how i couldnt wait to grow up...and now how i long for those days... high school especially... i loved it.. ill tell anyone i loved high school more then college.. it was my release... my people were great! getting to school early so u can chit chat with ure friends before homeroom... having ure heart skip when u see that boy that u have a crush on... not being able to talk to that boy until senior year... lol... just being carefree... my years at the movie theatre were hella fun too... carlos... mm mm mm... shakeef... damn.. bringing back some great memories... lets not forget the money... how was my bank account bigger when i was in high school then it is now?? nooooo damn bills... i dont think u heard me.. NOOOOOOO BILLSS... lorddddddddd what happenedddd!??? WHYYYY JEEZUSSS WHYYYY!!! (lol Sass)... 23... when i say it, i cant believe.. but yes im 23... where did the years go?

...signing off with a smile*

Thoughts...

i was going to title this post Monday Ramblings again but i decided not to... why? I dont know... seems like i always have a lot to ramble about on monday's... crazy! anyhow, so i followed suit and made a blogsome blog, but for some reason i am not feeling it. its not as pretty as nik nak's, cymple's or keish's. i must not be doing something right... anyhow... im not going to post the link until i get it to look the way i want it too...so until then.. www.missbhavin617.com it is!

so im stuck again... i have NO CLUE what to do with my hair anymore. dammit i miss that creamy crack!!! i miss it like... i miss my momma and kjc... im going crazy... i feel like ive come so far... why perm it.. not that anything's wrong with the oh so wonderful perm... but jeez... what to do what to do.. ive been thinking about putting braids back in it.. but no one told me to take those bitches out of my head in the first place... i could have just done the front and back over.. but no... i wanted to be a fast and see my hair.. WHY???? i know what the hell hair strands look like!! DAMMIT... now im assed out.. cuz i am NOT sitting in Adeola's chair for 7 hours... no no no... lol ... HELP ME PLEASE SOMEONE... maybe i should get a weave.. or another "investment".

Keyshia coles album is so hot! This is one album that i can listen to and not skip a damn song... and thats hard to come by like a perfect man...

this may be the last thing u read about kjc for a minute... we are in two diff states, on two different pages and in two diff worlds... i dont think hes ready for my world right now...im falling back... thats a post for blogsome... thats going to be the softer side of sears... lol

this weekend was the beginning of allhiphop week. the bbq was great! the food was catered by J's Southern Express... thats Mona's Scotts new restaurant(Violator Management)... delicious!!! im getting hungry just thinking about the ribs, chicken, fried whiting, mac and cheese...yes lord!

*pause* i just got finished praising Keyshia Cole's album... BUT did she just say
"CONVERSATE"??? oh shit... (listen to Guess what... and tell me if my ears were playing tricks on me)

so my PACE football player emailed me again today telling me that he was looking for me saturday night... heheh... really??? lets see how this goes...

ladies and gentlemen Schmoe has left the building. he has officially feel off the face of the earth. i was thinking that it had something to do with his uncle being in trouble again (suge knight) or he could be on tour with Rell (circa summer 2002... think "You know whats up") either way... i hope he comes back soon...

...signing off with a smile*

Im rocking rough and tough...

...with my afro-pufff! Tollaaa rock on with your baddd self...




now i just have to figure out what to do with this mess! I like it though... its growing on me... anyway.. here's a dose of this weeks randomness.

...so my cousin finally hooked up the wireless internet on my laptop! YESSS!! u know im excited. dont have to wait for the stinking teenagers to quit hogging the dsl (gotta luv em)

...question for ya... why is everyone leaving blogspot? (Cymple, Keish)? its kind of like in elementary school when everyone runs away from that lil kid that eats his boogies or wets his/her pants... LMAO... (dont ask)

... im sure everyone has seen the commercials for "Everybody hates Chris", Chris Rocks new show on UPN. I can not wait... that show is going to be HILARIOUS...

... am i the only one that thinks Ciara and Bow Wow make the cutest damn couple? (Even IF she is 2 inches taller then him). i love that song "like you" and the video is just as cute as they are!

... Tyra Banks and her new talk show... *crickets* WHAT??? This big headed broad on TV FIVEEE days a week now, TWICE ON TUESDAY AND FRIDAY... u cant be serious! how long do you think this one will last? i read that oprah endorsed Tyras show... so it will probably last as long as Gayle's show did.

... i love gwyneth paltrow. she is one of hollywoods best actresses but why oh why would you name your baby "Apple"? she better have some hidden reason behind that shit... lol and nothing like " She is the apple of my eye" no no no, thats not aceptable! well.. let me hush.. its her child... that will probably hate her when she hits elementary school...

...i was reading the post this morning. yes i know, "The post"? but i did not feel like breaking a 20 for .50 cents! So i bought the post. but why did i see 6 typos in that damn paper? WOW! Who is your copy editor!???? I want their job...

... work has me exhausted... allhiphop week is next week so i will be MIA... should be fun though... we've got tons of stuff lined up... cant wait to see the outcome...(if ure not with it... check out the site, www.allhiphop.com)

...missing my momma... and K.J.C


...signing off with a smile*

If I act now...

...i will make this situation ten times worse... but deep down inside i know its not that serious... so i will sleep on it.. dammit my mouth will get me in trouble... im steaming right now... i gotta sleep on it ...


WHaT??? I DARE YOU!*

LUDAAAAAAAAAAA

BEWARE: this is a scary pic... and im only posting it cuz a few people requested to see my Luda-fro... it gets bigger...

LMAO... dont let the ugly pic fool ya! Im still a pretty fly chick if i must say so myself!

and another:


...signing off with a smile*

Happppppyyy Birthdayyyy

to the one that i luv... :o) hes 24 today!!!!


...signing off with a smile*

yesterday.today.tomorrow

my turn!!

Ten years ago: Summer of 95! OH MAN WAS THAT A GREAT SUMMER. Although i got in a lot of trouble that summer, it was still fun! It was the summer in between 7th and 8th grade and I was at Mosholou Montefiore's summer camp! And man what a great camp it was. Talk about fun! we went somewhere EVERYDAY, had a late night everyweek, and two weekend trips. I think i had my first kiss that summer... hahah... i met my Marcus there and big mouth Amanda B. We all wound up going to the same high school and have been kool ever sense!


Five years ago: Oh my god... it was the summer right before Pace U. and boy was I excited!!!!
I could not wait to get out of my house, away from my father actually. It was time to go!!!! I was ready to meet new people and just enjoy the college life. Although i hated Pace while i was there, i appreciate my experience and all the memories that it has given me! Not to mention the great people/ mentors i had there, who are now fellow blogettes. (CC and Cymple)

One year ago: These damn years are going by so fast... Last year I graduated from Pace U. and at this time last year.... to the day (yesterday) I met my K.J.C... :o). It was a rough summer for me though... i graduated. ready to see the world.. scared as hell and mad as hell that my mom was selling the very house that i grew up and that i had to move in with my "aunt" in Throggs neck... i was devistated. I couldnt leave... it got so bad that my mom had to literally put me out. I was sulking around my house one day when my uncle from Connecticut pulled up with a U-haul... i was like what the hell are u doing here...? He was like.. " I came to get ure furniture... ure mom said i could have it" i was like wow! OH MY GOD... please believe i slept on the floor for 3 damn weeks after that cuz i still didnt want to leave. Fuh-niture or no fuh-niture.. i wasnt ready... and i wasnt going without a fight! LOL

Yesterday: Broke night from saturdays lil shindig and took my braids out on Stephanies newly carpeted living room floor! Happpy to be nappy once again... not really... im this close to getting a perm! THIS DAMN CLOSE!!!! But thats another blog for another day... ill post a pic of my LUDA afro...


Today: Doing work as usual.. have tons of errands to run, staff meeting at 7 pm... and meeting with Obbie to discuss the next step in The Ovington Prophete Agency!


Tomorrow: Work during the day and my consultant job at night! Isnt this great!


...signing off with a smile*

R.I.P

Please forgive me... im 2 days late...

i just happened to go on howard university's website today to check out some information on homecoming, only to find out that John Johnson, founder of the largest african american publications company died... i love ebony magazine... so its only right that we take a moment out of our day and say a prayer for his family... "let us bow our heads"... (:o).

John Johnson

Monday ramblings

~* Didn’t I tell you that Schmoe was going to resurface. So predictable. Such a man. Nothing special though.. he hit me with the usual “ Hey Beautiful”. Blah blah blah… moving right a long.

~* So to increase my income I will be doing consulting work on top of all the other stuff that I do! I should be out of this house in no time... (IF I stay out of the stores)

~* I would really like to go to VA before the end of the summer to see my momma and to get some good food!

~* I have nothing to say about K.J.C right now. Still love him…

~* Im supposed to be going to Chicago for some Hip Hop Journalism something in September. Gotta love those “Business trips”. But we shall see…

~* I have a fan!!! One of my old roomies from school said my blog cracks her up and gives her something to read! Glad I could help K!!!!

~* Hey NIK NAKK!!!! When you driving Miss. Independence up north????

~* Does anyone know anything about the NYC Bloggers meet-up? Sass and I would like to attend… Where do we sign up??? :o)

~* Cass could you send me some real Italian food overnight express? All you have to do is freeze it and pack it in some ice and…

~* Even after all of the bullshit she has put me through why do I feel bad about my “wedding” post?

~* No I don’t… nevermind!

~* Happy Monday :o) !!!

...signing off with a smile*

Morning ramblings...

~* ok so on my way to work this morning, my handy dandy dell-pod was entertaining me with some smooth old school tunes. everything from Mary's " My life" album to classic 112... man i was relaxed... cool calm and colllecctedd... then... as i walk into the building to begin my day... young bucks "Shorty wanna ride with me" comes on. so u know i walked in the office with the CRUNK! face on... make em' say UNNNHHHHH. lol. gotta luv that damn random play setting... :o)

~* i think today is his first day of med school. i hope hes ok! good luck! :o)

~* i was thinking about my fam members this morning. i need to send the elders some "Just because" or "thinking of you "cards. i know they are talking about me...lol... im sorryyyy!!! ill call.. i promise... but in the meantime gotta get some cards...

~* one of my friends from school is moving to the BRONX!!!! hollaaaa.... my other school friends and I are so excited. shes fun to be around. although im excited as hell.. im also a lil' uneasy...

~* i love my friends from home. we've got Sass, Steph, Rose... hmmm i think thats about it... wait, cant forget the reserves that i like to call when its time to go... KpMcCoy and Tasha... but my immediate friends are the three stated previously. im one to try to get all of my friends together so we can be one big happy gi.rl friend(s) group.. but in reality... that can NOT happen. toooo much estrogen. someone is not going to like someone's tone, attitude.. blah blah blah.. u know how that shit goes... thats why im a lil' weary... i love my pace fam... amboogie... lil one' and bi bi... but i think id feel guilty chilling with them on certain occasions and not my home friends. im BIG on LOYALTY and FRIENDSHIP. my friends know that if u got me, im ure friend for LIFE... cant get rid of me (that can be a bad thing lol) thats why im so confused. id love for all of us to be friends... to expand everyone's friend group... but is that possible? what to do, what to do... help me out Sass...

~* i love him... no doubt about it... but i think i feel it happening... ever get that feeling... u want someone (thing) so bad, u get it... and then... its like, now what? and then u dont want it anymore...? i do that alllll the time... ESPECIALLYYYY with guys...no no no, im not saying i dont want K.J.C, please believe i do... but something is happening... i think about our situation allll the time, and i think that im becomming more and more in tune with realism as days go by... im going to marry him (and you are allll invited) ... but in the meantime i have to do me right? doing me IS NOT synonymous with doing OTHERS... just means that i can not continue to live in this fantasy world... we will be together one of these days.. but until then...

~* i have no idea what happened to schmoe... lol... but i trust that he will pop up again sometime this week...

~* so i was attacked by a former PACE U. football player that i had my eyes on since my first days there! yeah.. we saw each other one night and it was OVER! i would LOVEEE to get into details... but CANT!!! LOL.. just know that i was damn near molested.... and loved everyyyyy minute of it!

~* like my P.I.C, im LOVING the blog community! its so much fun... dont ever wanna leave!

~* on the train this morning, i was sitting in front of this lil' girl and her momma. the girl could not have been any more then 8 years old but she had the HAIRIEST legs i've ever seen in my life. granted... she had a lot of hair on her head but she MUST have some over-active glands or too much of SOMETHING in her system to have her looking like a warewolf at 8! Nair does wonders baby... if u cant stand the smell try VEET!

~* i wish i could look into the future...

~* am i the only one that saw RIZE? give me back my money please!

~* Sassss.. we never saw the "Traveling pants of the ya ya sisterhood " movie !


~* i miss my mommy... :'o(

...signing off with a smile*