Running rampant...

... is what my mind is doing right now. i cant sleep. ive been in bed since 12 but its damn near 3 and im WIDE AWAKE. im not sure if its katrina thats bothering me, me going through KJC withdrawal, or if its the pills that i popped this afternoon (dont ask). im bothered. dont know by what, but i do know im bothered. im watching this special on VH1 with India Aire entitled " Tracking the Monster." its a documentary of her trip through africa visiting those with HIV/AIDS. this shit has me f***ed up too... just watching the orphaned children run around is bugging me the hell out. India Aire made friends with a 14 year old orphan who looked like she had the weight of the world on her shoulders. she gave her a bookbag full of lil' things we take for granted, like a tub of vaseline, some flipflops and some other things that i couldnt make out because of my blurred teary eyed vision. the girl looked like it was christmas! she was elated as i sit/ sat here devistated.

cymple scared the hell out of me tonight as well... the last paragraph in PASSING ME BY is the last thing that i needed to read tonight. THANX CYMPLE! THANK YOU. :o(. all i can think of is... yes ure pastor is right... so what next???? jezus... i need sleep...



...signing off *