Hair

OK... those of you that know me very well, know that I am having ISSUES with my hair! Not hair growing issues, not hair loss issues, nothing to that effect, but I have no CLUE what to do with it anymore! For the past year i have worn extentions (braids) because I was transitioning from permed hair to natural hair. OK great mission accomplished! Last october I took my braids out and for about two weeks, I experimented with my hair. Then I cheated and put braids back in until about 3 weeks ago, and here I am again at wits end trying to figure out what to do next! Ive worn it in a twist out style for 3 weeks. LOL... This weekend I came to the conclusion that I was going to get a texturizer! Think again... That defeats the purpose! Why did I go natural you ask? I didnt go natural because I was soooo against the creamy crack that most of us have grown to love, I decided to go natural because I wanted to do something different after graduation. I wanted to think of it as my transition from college student to working woman...make sense? Did to me, and still does! I think my issue is that I am not used to short hair. Its not that short but it is the shortest that Ive ever had it. Its not hard to manage at all, but im just not used to it and will probably never get used to it if I keep doing things to it. So, the texturizer is out. Im not going to do it. I think I am going to get it washed and set this weekend. Lets see how long this one lasts!

Black Bitchhh...

...is what I was called tonight by this old white man. OK so let me give you a play by play of tonights turn of events. So.. I got off the train into the BITTER cold of a NYC winter night. I usually stand in the chinese restaurant to stay warm while I wait for the bus ( yeah sucks big time). So I walked in the store like I do everyday, and when I walked in there was this blond hair, blue eyes white man sitting down waiting for his food. When I walked in he mumbled something under his breath but I didnt pay attention because I thought he was just being old and crazy. So, while im waiting, the chinese lady behind the counter calls the man to tell him that his food was ready. SO he goes up to get his food and proceeds to exit the store, but not without leaving me his regards:

Old White Man: Move out of my f*ucking way you black bitch... (as he walks out of the store)
Me: (watching him walk out wondering if i really heard what I heard and then opening the door) Go to hell!
Old WHite Man: What did you say to me???
Me: I said go the fuck to hell!
Old White Man: (coming back into the store) F*ck you you black bastard! You are in a white neighborhood!
Me: (no this man didnt) F*ck YOU!!!!! I dont give a f*ck where I am! God doesnt like ugly! And you are going to hell you racist pig!

... as this is going on im getting erratic! Those that know me know that I am quick to speak my mind, sometimes tooooo quick. But when I am upset there is NOO stopping me!

Old WHite Man: (with his hands IN MY FACE) YOU ARE A BLACK BITCH!!
ME: (turning around and picking up a folding chair) Mister I will f*cking kill you in this store!

... and then the Chinese man (I guess the owner) grabbed the chair out of my hand, and Old Racist proceeds to leave the store. Needless to say, I was soooo gone. I walked out of the store and called my mother. I could barely breathe nonetheless speak. I was hysterical and while I proceeded to tell my mother the story, she calmed me down with her everloving soothing voice! I forgot to mention that while im talking to my mother, im walking down the block following the white man. He went into the grocery store and i watched him like a stalker waiting to attack. He then went into a lawyers office, exited, and then walked his red neck ass down the block to his house. I know I was looking like a crazy woman, but I was sooo gone. I can make light of the situation now because I am relaxed but when im upset, im livid. That was my FIRST encounter with racism EVER! I went to a failry caucasion Catholic high school, and a predominately "majority" univeristy and never have I experienced anything like that in my life. Although im ok now, i know something is still bothering me... something is broken... i dunno if its my heart or if its my spirit, but trust me.. something is broken. That old racist white man took a part of me home with him...

Tre

Ok... so I stole this idea from CC who stole it from from Will, who stole it from Singing...and the list goes on.. lol

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Tola
2. Tola May
3. Chipmunk

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Heartbrkr617
2. Supastar617
3. Llakersgyrl

(All pretty self explanatory huh? And the 617 always gives me away!)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Smile
2. my NEW boobies
3. my teeeeeeth

THREE THINGS YOU HATE/DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My nose
2. my FEET (no, i dont have corns or bunyons or any other growth, i just dont like em)
3. procrastinator

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Nigerian-American
2. African American
3. Native- American (Shinnecock Native American to be exact!)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. SPIDERSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. Drowning (although I am a very good swimmer)
3. Death

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Toothbrush
2. Shower
3. Computer

( CC I think you hit the nail on the head with these essentials!)

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Brown and Tan sweater
2. Tan pants
3. chinese slippers (I can wear slippers in my office)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists(at the moment)):
1. Kanye West
2. Destinys Child
3. Linkin Park

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Hopeful (Twista ft Faith)
2. Shake that a** (50 Cent)
3. Lovers and Friends (Usher, Luda and Lil Jon)

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Travel
2. Be on Tv
3. My own apt and a new car (Im DONE with used CARS!)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Respect
2. Passion
3. Honesty (should have been # 1)

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. I love snow
2. Ive been to the Bahamas
3. I was born in BK

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. teeth
2. Hands
3. height

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. I can do ALL things through Christ who strenghtens me! -Phil 4:13

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. listening to Music
2. reading/ writing
3. Dancing

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Go to starbucks and get a WHITE CHOCOLATE MOCHA EXPRESSOOOOOOO
2. get my eyebrows done
3. go shoppinnnng

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Television VJ
2. Publicist to the stars
3. Actress

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Aruba
2. San Tropez
3. Europe

THREE KID'S NAMES
1. Morgan
2. Chase
3. Dakota (lol)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Get married
2. make a million
3. bungee jump

Back for the first time...

*For those of you who dont know, "Back for the first time" is the title of Ludacris' first album.


Here ye, here ye! I am back, with a venegence if I may add... 2005 is here and I welcome it with open arms! 05' is my year... and IF you didnt know... ha...


So, the new year came and what did I do. I didnt go out and party like I normally would, or would have loved to do... this year I did something a lil different. Since the latter part of my 04 was HORRIBLE, I wanted to avoid some of the same matters in 05. So when the clock struck 11:55, I ran into my bedroom, got down on my knees, and prayed. Yeah, its bad that some of us only pray when things go wrong, or in a time of need, but yes I prayed. And i have kept it up since. Its crazy that i havent been to church since last Easter I think. College messed me up! Lol. BUt yes, that is what I did on New years eve. Needless to say, I partied hard on saturday AND SUNDAY!!!!

Fast forward to January 3rd. My first day at my new JOBBY JOB! YES, I have a new job. It may not be EXACTLY what I want to do in life but its close to it. I am the Event Coordinator for Columbia University. Aint that sumthin! (The Va accent coming out of me) Yessss lawd.... God is good aint he? Lol

Fast forward to today, Jan 21st, the end of week 3. Its been kool. I like it here. Its much different from my previous job(s) but I feel like I can learn a lot here. Im also doing event coordinating for Complex Magazine... yay... and doing some PR for Loose Canonz Ent (The next Roc-A -fella, so they say) lol. But other then that I am wonderful, happy to be in a new year, happy to be in a new job, a new frame of mind and happy to be alive... :o)